Fear
March 27, 2022
I'm 27 years old this year and I have been cheated on and lied on...
It's never been easy to fall in love again as there's always a chance whereby someone is just gonna be in my life, cheat on me or lie to me, and leave me. To me, it is really, really hard on me.
Well, let me get this straight. I'm a guy and I'm straight, and I have 2 ex-girlfriends in the past. One is about 3 years and another is about 3 weeks. I won't say the whole story in detail but keeping it short, it wasn't a good experience.
After these 2 past relationships, I developed a fear inside me. A fear that if I ever fall in love again, history is just gonna be a bitch and repeat itself, again.
I know, all of you will tell me to try again, it may be different this time round but hey, it isn't easy. Yes, I'm married right now, I love her a lot and I trust her a lot. It is just the fear that is taking over me and every single time when I try to stop it, it just won't stop but instead, it's so much worse.
The keys to a perfect relationship are loyalty, honesty, respect, love, communication, compromisation and commitment. I can tell you right now that I'm all that. However, it is just that this fear keep crawling its way up and taking over me and there's literally nothing I could do to stop it. I have tried a lot and a lot of times but it's not working.
What am I supposed to do? I'm lost and I'm confused and yes, the fear of losing her, is strong...
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